My friendships aren’t where I’d like them to be, my apartment is a mess, I’ve been a bundle of panic and stomach aches, I’ve had nightmares, and all-in-all I’ve just been pretty miserable. I want to fix all of the ‘outside’ stuff so badly. I want to fix my friendships that have fallen apart and let those people know that I love them. Sometimes you just have to have faith that things will work out.
I’m more of a bend-things-to-my-will-girl personally. It’s not doing me any favors at the moment. Yesterday was a lesson in letting go and relaxing. I was on twitter and I made mention that there were so many things in my life to fix and I didn’t know where to begin. The overwhelming response from my wonderful “tweeps” was to concentrate on one thing at a time. Advice well given. I’m trying to concentrate on me.
So I made a date with myself.
Yesterday, I went to a day Spa and got a wonderful, wonderful, massage. Afterward, I stopped at a cute kitchenware store and dreamed of all of the wonderfully, yummy, desserts I could make with all the cute cupcake pans (If I was so inclined to bake, which I am not).Then I got all dressed up and did my hair in pretty braids, while wearing my beautiful turquoise jewelry. I then went and saw Harry Potter and I refused to be bothered by the fact that I was alone, because I had fun. I enjoyed the movie and it was great. I came home and slept in and today I find myself in a good mood.
It was a good day. It was self care.
I’m going to take a nice hot relaxing bath soon. I’m going to have mid-morning tea. I actually feel like writing. I feel like being creative. I feel like putting myself first. Just having a day for myself has made me feel so much lighter. The burdens have begun to lift. The anxiety has begun to fade. Hopefully, I can remember that putting myself first leads to more happiness than anything else.
If you’re feeling a little blue, I ask you to take some time for yourself tomorrow or this weekend. Plan it out. Make it good.
Take care of you.