I remember the summer of 2004 well. Alanis Morissette’s latest album So-Called Chaos had just been released and it was perpetually playing in my walkman.
That was a pretty bad time for me.
Days after graduating high school, my family and I picked up and moved across the country.
The stress and upheaval of the move devastated me and triggered my stress and depression in a horrible way.
I became borderline agoraphobic. I was in a new state with no friends and living with my family who I wasn’t on good terms with. I didn’t think I was smart enough to go to college and The Depression stripped me of any drive or desire to try. The thought of getting my first ever job crippled me with even more stress and anxiety.
In the two years after the move I rarely left the house. Eventually, I started taking short walks around the block, Alanis Morissette blaring in my ears. I fell head over heels in love with her song “Everything”.
You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I’m ashamed
There’s not anything to which you can’t relate
And you’re still here