Why I love DBT


Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) is a behavioral treatment that was created to treat Borderline Personality Disorder but is now being used to treat a whole host of mental illnesses. It’s a therapy that is designed to help you change thought patterns and so much more. It teaches you how to re-program your brain and I’ve found it to be extremely helpful in whatever ways I’m trying to improve myself. It’s definitely on my list of self care.
Personally, I think it’s something that we should all learn just because it teaches us really good coping skills.

Here are the four main points of DBT.

Mindfulness: How to be in the moment instead of what happened a month ago/ year ago/ decade ago. Focus on the present and separating yourself from past baggage. Don’t let how you were treated or felt in the past color what’s happening in the moment.

Distress Tolerance: How to cope with super strong emotions that you feel like you are never going to be able to control. How to get through those feelings without losing your shit.

Interpersonal Effectiveness: How to have good relationships with people without driving them away with your out-of-control behavior that usually manifests itself in extreme neediness and then anger when your needs aren’t meant. Also, how to set boundaries and realistic expectations.

Emotion Regulation: How to identify, then deal with, and eventually change the emotions that you’re feeling in the moment. It also teaches you how to understand your impulses related to each emotion.

In my early 20s, I was an emotional wreck. I was irrational and jealous. I was like Jekyll and Hyde. One minute I would tell you that I adored you and then if I got mad at you I’d tell you to get out of my life, which I would apologize for five minutes later. I was constantly worried about being replaced in my relationships and in my friendships that if you talked to anyone else I’d get this immediate surge of anger and jealousy and even hatred.

I was at 150% emotion all of the time. I wasn’t just sad, I was ALL THE SAD. I wasn’t just angry, I was HULK SMASH. My emotions went from 0 to 150 with nowhere to go in between. I had no way to regulate myself and this turned me into a verbally abusive, suicidal, angry, constantly crying, mess of a person.

My best friend at the time had a talk with me that amounted to: If you continue to act like this, I can’t have you in my life for my own mental wellbeing.

And that was like a kick in the face. It was confirmation to all those parts of my brain that told me that I would always be abandoned. At first, I just didn’t believe it. Then came anger. Then came “Holy crap, my favorite person in the world says that I’m really hurting them.”

And I had to take a really long, hard, look at my behavior. And it was very, very, ugly.

Which made me realize that yeah, the things I put people through are not okay. I did a lot of research on how to fix that. I don’t know if I have Borderline Personality Disorder but at the time I checked a lot of the criteria for a diagnosis.

Frantic efforts to avoid being abandoned by friends and family? Yep.
Unstable personal relationships that alternate between idealization—“I’m so in love!”—and devaluation—“I hate her.” This is also sometimes known as “splitting.” Also, yep.
Distorted and unstable self-image, which affects moods, values, opinions, goals and relationships. Yep.
Suicidal and self-harming behavior. Yep.
Periods of intense depressed mood, irritability or anxiety lasting a few hours to a few days. Yep.
Chronic feelings of boredom or emptiness. Yep.
Inappropriate, intense or uncontrollable anger—often followed by shame and guilt. Yep.

That realization that my behavior wasn’t actually normal, that I wasn’t just “a bit dramatic” was a huge turning point in my life. I realized that I was doing serious lasting harm to myself and the people around me.

I’ve done eight years of work, often involving DBT, and it has completely changed my life.

I still have moments when I feel the urges to flip out. There are still some times that I do, although not to extent that I did many years ago. Change does happen but it is also a process. I just wanted to write this post as a nod to one of my most valuable self care tools and DBT is definitely one of them. Caring for your mental health is just as important as everything else.

If you struggle with any of these things check out DBT. Ask your doctor or therapist about it, see if there are any groups in your area, read all of the books you can! Be proactive about your mental health! I truly believe that we can all benefit from having more healthy coping mechanisms in our lives.